October 15 is a day that really had no meaning before 2011. October 15 is Infant & Pregnancy Awareness Day. In March 2011 I miscarried my first baby at 12 weeks. I was so devastated, at the time I just wanted to give up having my own children. But I soon discovered a world that seems to hide in the shadows of pregnancy. This day is also special because my due date for the baby for just a few days before the 15th.
It is only after you have a miscarriage that you hear of others have been through the same thing. It also makes any pregnancy after scarier. When I was pregnant with Nora, I guarded the fact that I was pregnant from most everyone until I was 14 weeks and I had heard the heartbeat a few times. I spent most of the first and even second trimesters worried that something awful was going to happen to her. I found it very difficult to find joy during the early days of my pregnancy. I was so happy to deliver a happy healthy girl just a few days before Christmas.
Even today with baby #2, I was still very worried early on. I'm starting to think worry a little less. (It helps that I have an almost 2 year old to chase after) But the worry is still there. And especially today. We had our 20 week ultrasound and while it appears to look good, I still worry. I'm just thankful I have an amazing husband who has seen me through and very supportive. But at the end of the day, it was fun to discover that we will have another girl joining our family in March 2015!
No sewing to update on, as I spend the day out of the house and even had a date night with my hubby. It will be back to sewing tomorrow though!